(getting fucked by my depression)
there is no largeness inside of me today. there is only a mass of past pieces that have never really gone away. together, they make up a scaly, abrasive thing that grips me suddenly and pulls me into bed roughly. they chafe and cut and leave me short of breath. there is no time to cry, only a perpetual swelling inside of me.
it promises relief, but we all know how promises made in bed end.